How Sweet It Is...

With everything going on lately I have found it really difficult to dive into the Word. My heart just hasn't been there or into it really. I think that's ok too. I used to think I was a terrible person for going through periods of time where my heart just wasn't into reading the Bible. I've learned recently though, it's not about reading, it's about the time and it's about what God can speak to my heart through it.

I've certainly been crying out to God a whole lot during the last few days. That's how I've connected with him...and on a much deeper level than i would have if i had just sat down and mindlessly read my Bible. God and I have had some words over the last week and a half. And it's been real.

But tonight, i felt my heart gravitating back towards the Word, as it eventually does when i go through times like this. So I opened back up to where I left off in Isaiah 42. And God spoke loudly to me. First what captured me was this "Fear not, for i have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine." 42:2 I was struck by the abruptness of the words. "you are mine." the end. I am his, he has called out to me by name and I have nothing to fear, because I AM HIS.

The next thing that struck me, and I found it pretty funny because my friend Molly and I had been discussing this verse just a few days ago, was Isaiah 43:19 "See I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland." With all that has happened in the last couple weeks I have been fearful of a lot. I have been hurting and questioning and worrying that I will never be alright after having experienced all of this. And then there's this verse. And God reassures me that he IS doing something new in my heart. It's coming. He's making the darkness into light. He's bringing restoration for my heart. I take so much comfort in that. And I actually find myself excited over it. God is doing a new thing in my heart. :) whew...there are no words for that feeling. I don't know what it could be, or where it could lead me. But he's doing something new.